yoursecretlover

2010-01-10T09:18:00.001+08:00

where has all th sayangs, hugs and kisses gone too?
i really miss those days.
sigh.

2009-07-06T18:42:00.002+08:00

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL! :D

first day of school while th secondary schools are having youth day break!
and that sucks you know ):
went to school at 9 today for some h1n1 screening.
didnt had pe today for dont know what reason but still it was great :D
than had early lunch break today :D
after that my teacher showed us a movie called th ramen girl.
it was really touching to see how that girl persevere until th end(:
with a moral at th back of th story, kinda cool yeah? :D
oh well, school tml!:D

for some reason i can't post photos! D:

2009-07-02T02:36:00.001+08:00

BENITA LIM! GET WELL SOON ALRIGHT? <3

2009-07-02T02:34:00.002+08:00

maybe knowing you from th start was a mistake.
getting closer to you is a regret.
that's all i can say.

2009-07-01T02:11:00.001+08:00

i cant wait for thursday to come yo! :D

2009-06-24T22:17:00.001+08:00

just some random photos of today:D

haha, he claims to be my godfather :/

2009-06-21T01:46:00.002+08:00

if you ever read this....

seriously, i would want to just see you for once.
just once.

....uoy ssim i

2009-06-20T02:14:00.002+08:00

sometimes i really feel drifted away from th church peeps.
esp my benita sigh!
but now, just for now i feel better with my classmates.

2009-06-16T13:15:00.002+08:00

badminton training is at 12 and th time now is 1.15.
so i've decided not to go for training but to study later!
wise or unwise desicion?

2009-06-15T02:05:00.002+08:00

Haven't updated for th longest period of time i guess.
Went to th hotel today for work you can say..
Singtel had some function in th noon today and Lady GaGa was there too!
But i didnt get to see her not even a sight!
DAMN! >:(
Anyway, love went for her concert today.
Lucky girl uhhhh, VIP somemore.
HAHAHAHAHA!

I seriously don't know whether should i say this but i've decided too.
But nevermind, i shall keep it to myself.
Just to be kind uh.

Haven't been to church for a period of time. ):
I miss everybody there!
ESP JOAN(!!!) ):

I can't even remember how i type when i post! TSKKKKK!

Anyway, guess who is this at th bottom :D

This orange ball thingy with green hair is actually wagu beef ball.
Simply, delicious! *one good reason for being a chef :D*

2009-06-02T23:30:00.002+08:00

phase test is finally ending in 2 days time! WHOOOO!

2009-05-27T19:09:00.001+08:00

sometimes i really wonder what are you thinking about deep inside you.
it seems like you're really scheming th next step.
feels so scary.

2009-05-26T17:21:00.002+08:00

sometimes i really wonder if you cared about how others feel before you do those stuff.
it may be fun and entertaining for you to do it.
but you nvr think of their feelings before yours.
sometimes, i really hope that somebody would do th same thing to you.
and see how you feel.

2009-05-19T21:57:00.000+08:00

2009-05-18T18:35:00.004+08:00

edited.

took a bus with my dad for th first time today from kaki bukit to bedok! :D
i just love th feeling of taking bus with my dad!
super funny luhs.
yay my daddy's car looks like new now! :D

i don't know what has gotten into me seriously.
suddenly i can get every pissed off easily by those people in class.
i also feel that i'm drifting away from them.
sigh.

2009-05-16T23:24:00.004+08:00

waited for kiefer at th mrt station today for about 20 mins leh ):
she knows that i'm th EARLIEST QUEEN in town mah ):
in th end lucky we weren't late for th thing i think.
haha.
went for th last part of th turkey workshop today like finally luh.
but i kind of regretted going for th thing today.
mainly is because of ben that stupid guy.
he just have to keep giving that stupid stare.
i just simply hate it luhs.

anyway, kiefer i hope everything is alright over at your side yeah? :D

Appetizer.

Main Course.

And this if of course th main ingredient of th day :D

th chef that cooked for us. KIEFER I'M NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM AH!

If i were a guy i might do this tattoo! :D

haha. JUST KIDDING! OUCH SO PAINFUL ):

2009-05-09T16:39:00.003+08:00

from th first time i saw you i wanted to tell you that you're cute.
but i seriously dont't know what are you really thinking about.
but you're still cute :D

2009-05-06T18:22:00.003+08:00

Haven't updated for quite awhile yeah.
School is really really tiring ):
Anyway, Mandarin Oriental here i come :D
I really wished that Kiefer could go but she came into class after Mr Leong said about it. ):
Anyway Kiefer if you read this, i just want to tell you that I'm really sorry about what happened that day. I really felt damn shitty after a long day of school and what happened in school. I didn't mean to say what came out of my mouth. Seriously, i didn't mean it. Sorry.

2009-05-04T17:37:00.000+08:00

i'm too sad to even post! ):

2009-05-02T22:20:00.003+08:00

Edited:

TURKEY WORKSHOP TODAY AT SHACTEC!

From th left: Bob, Hamza, Jap, Chef Eric Teo, Shafiq and Me!

From th left: Mr Ignaitus Leong, Chef Eric Teo, Jap and Me!

This is th dish that th Japanese chef cooked.

It's called, Braised Claypot Turkey With Daikon.

It's delicious! :D

And this is my meal luh! :D

Japanese Steam Rice is super nice and of course with th turkey!

Went for movie at West Mall today with Bob and Hamza.

Watched Friday The 13 with only 8 people in th cinema including us!

HAHAHAH!

It was really frightening! ):

Anyway, tml will be a super busy or rather tight day!

Service in th morning.

My nephew's full month tml.

Parents' Night dinner tml.

I seriously got no time to rest! ):

2009-05-01T21:16:00.004+08:00

i'm having a turkey workshop tml i hope that it's gna be fun :D
and i went to town today with kiefer to collect her cap.
i think her cap is super cool!
it can glow in th dark yo! :D
than went down to meet kailin'q and her friends.
i think today was alright.

2009-04-27T17:54:00.001+08:00

do i have to hang out with them to feel th sense of belonging?

2009-04-26T18:33:00.003+08:00

school is pretty fun and it's getting even more interesting as time goes by.
went to school for badminton training on friday and i got selected to be in the school team somehow.
i think it's retarded.
oh well, i guess it's time for me to get serious with what i do now.
with the tight schedule that i'm given i think i've got to really try very hard to handle.
maybe for awhile and i'll start to get used to it.
wish me luch (:

2009-04-22T20:33:00.001+08:00

th heat is killing me now! ):
school is alright i guess.

if i was me now two years back or maybe one year back, I'd really treasure and hold on to you tightly.
but it's too like now.
definitely too late now.

it's you that i miss.

2009-04-18T00:25:00.004+08:00

Edited.

Hey if you ever read this, I'm willing to go sky-glazing with you. Anyway, I know you won't ever read this post so it's alright. I was willing to go with you to anywhere but you never gave me a chance to do so right from the start.

2009-04-16T23:00:00.002+08:00

i seriously don't know what's wrong with you.
so do you think that you're flawless?
think about it.
when i talked to you nicely how did you reply me?
i think you're the one that needs to check on your attitude.
i dont have to tell others about our problems to gain their pity.
if you think that i'm someone that is like that, go ahead.
seriously, go ahead.
yeah you're right, you're just a backup plan.
i didnt need you and you didnt need me either.
i've been waiting for you to change your attitude but you're still the same.
no matter how hard i tried it's still not pleasing to you.
i don't know what you really want from me.
so i think now i'm ready to let go of this friendship seriously there's no turning back.
bye.

2009-04-16T18:08:00.001+08:00

thank God for my timetable because i wont have to go for class on FRIDAYS! :D

2009-04-14T22:32:00.002+08:00

some how I'm looking forward to go to school now! :D
fun people but not really fun.

tml will be better :D

2009-04-13T21:45:00.002+08:00

Went to The Pines yesterday for Pr Loli and Kenei's wedding reception :D

I think it's super cool leh.

Maybe I should hold my 21st birthday party there :D

Anyways, first day of school today was totally boring. ):

In my mind, I wanted to open my mouth to say hi to them but I didn't dare too ):

Hopefully it'll get better tml :D

2009-04-11T22:44:00.001+08:00

i want th best for you that's why i'm objecting
i'm not going to pull you down by supporting you.
i just can't imagine was is going to happen if you break.

2009-04-06T01:37:00.002+08:00

will you let me be there for you when you need somebody to talk too?
i just want to be right there next to you whenever you need somebody to talk too.
friend, don't be discourage about what has really happened in life now alright?
it's just part and parcel of life.
you have to look forward in life and learn from all of the mistakes that you've made.

2009-04-03T23:37:00.002+08:00

oh please tell me what can i do to regain all those friendship that i've lost or i am going to lose?

2009-04-02T20:05:00.002+08:00

I. AM. FEELING. DAMN. DISGUSTED. NOW!

2009-04-01T22:16:00.001+08:00

it's over.

2009-03-30T18:40:00.001+08:00

felt so comforted when i heard that my uncle and aunt was going to church.

2009-03-28T00:20:00.001+08:00

you make me feel so asphyxiated and bet you don't even know that do you?

2009-03-21T00:31:00.001+08:00

sometimes i really wonder if you cared but aft what happened just now, i've found my answer. this friendship that we're having now is one that i hold close to my heart.

2009-03-17T19:36:00.003+08:00

i just don't know what's with th issue now!
everything seems to be like alright on th surface of everything.
but underneath there's some issue and i don't know what it is.

i'm sorry that you've got to make decisions like this all th time.
i'm really sorry, you know you can just go with that person and just don't care about me?
i can settle things on my own.
i'm sure she's a really great friend i don't want you to lose her or something along that line luhs.
i'm sorry. really.

我只想簡單的做我自己

2009-03-16T23:48:00.002+08:00

Tagged by BangJie

001. Real Name: JiaHui
002. Nickname(s): Jia, POOPOO!, Jh, Jia ah hu.
003. Age: 19004. Horoscope: Capricorn
005. Male or Female: Female
006. Elementary: Glory Kindergarden
007. Middle School: PeiHwa Presbyterian Primary School(PHPPS)
008. High School: St Margarets' Secondary School (SMSS)
009. College School: ITE Clementi ( if it's considered)
010. Hair colour: Black011. Long or Short: short
012. Loud or Quiet: Loud i suppose :/
013. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans
014. Phone or Camera: Camera
015. Health Freak: Not really
016. Drink or Smoke: Used too for both
017. Do you have a crush on someone: HAHAH secret!
018. Eat or Drink: EAT!
019. Piercings: EARS AND TOUNGE!
020. Tattoos: NAH I DON'T HAVE ANY!
021. Social or Anti-Social: Social!
022. Righty or lefty: LEFTY!
023. First piercing: when i was 13
024. First relationship: 13
025. First Best Friend: I don't have best friends but i have best BUDDIES!
026. First Award: I DONT HAVE ANY AWARDS!
027. First Kiss: UH HUH GOOD QUESTION! I DON'T REMEMBER!
028. First Pet: MY GREY RABBITS!
029. First Big Vacation: UHM how big is big?
030. First Love at first sight: UHM NO!
031. First Big Birthday: IT'S TODAY!
032. First Surgery: HUH?! WHAT'S THAT? HAHAHAH!
033. First sport you joined: SWIMMING YO!

This or That
034. Orange or Apple juice: Orange
035. Rock or Rap: Rap
036. Country or Screamo: Screamo
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: BACKSTREET BOYS ARE EMO I LOVE EMOS!
038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera: Britney spears luh! OOPS I FARTED AGAIN! HAHAHHA
039. Night or Day: NIGHT
040. Sun or Moon: Sun luh!
041. TV or Internet: Internet!!
042. Playstation or xbox: XBOX YO!
043. Kiss or hug: Hugs
044. Iguana or turtle: Turtle luhs.
045. Spider or bee: Bee i like flight of th bumble bee!
046. Fall or spring: Spring i guess.
047. Limewire or iTunes: iTunes!
048. Soccer or baseball: Soccer!

Currently
049. Eating: Salty Dessert!
050. Drinking: Sliava!
051. Excitement level: Low. Too emo!
052. I’m about to: SLit my wrist and die!
053. Listening to: 咬字
054. Plan for today: NAH!
055. Waiting for: School to start
056. Energy Level: 10%
057. Thinking of someone: Uh huh!
058. Want kids?: Never thought it luhs.
059. Want to get married?: Never thought of it!
060. When?: When you get your first grandchild! :D
061. How many kids do you want: 1/4
062. Any name on the mind: Siao ehhhh!
063. What did you want to be when you were little: Chef!
065. Mellow future or wild: Uh I don't know!
066. Something you would never try: Eating SHIT!
067. When do you want to die: When HE ask me to go back!

Which is the better in the boy/girl you like (in the future)
068. Lips or Eyes: Eyes.
069. Romantic or Funny?: Funny
070. Shorter or Taller?: SHORTER!
071. Protective or Caring?: Caring luhs!
072. Romantic or Spontaneous?: Spontaneous!
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms?: HUH?!
074. Sensitive or Loud?: NONE!
075. Hook-up or Relationship?: Relationship luhs!
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant?: NONE!
077. Muscular or normal: Normal luhs

078. Kissed a stranger: Siao!
079. Broken a bone: YEAH MY COLLAR BONE?
080. Lost glasses or contacts: I'VE GOT PERFECT EYE SIGHT!
081. Ran away from home: I don't ever want to ran away ever again!
082. Held a gun/knife for self defence: NONE!
083. Killed somebody: YEAH using my words!
084. Broken some one’s heart: yeah OF COURSE!
085. Had your heart broken: YEAH it was all over th place leh!
086. Been arrested: YEAH
087. Cried when someone died: YES
088. Liked a friend more than a friend: UH HUH!

Do you believe in
089. Yourself: NO
090. Miracles: YES
091. Love at first sight: NO
092. Heaven: YES
093. Santa Claus: NO
094. Tooth Fairy: NO
095. Kiss in the first date: NO
096. Angels: YES

Answer Truthfully
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now?: YES
098. Are you seriously happy with where you’re in life now?: NO
099. Do you believe in God?: YES OF COURSE!
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people.

taggy.
1)YU BIN LEE!
2)BENITA LIM!
3)JIREH TAY!
4)JOAN ONG!
5)SHANTELLE SIM!
6)VANOHA CHIAM!
7)DESIREEEEEE!
8)NICHOLAS NG!
9)BEATRICE TAN!
10)JASMINE LAI!

2009-03-16T20:40:00.002+08:00

i enjoyed playing badminaton today.
i wish that we could actually play long.
i just want to smash out all th emoness in me.

sometimes, i wonder whether am i important to anybody!

life's a bitch.

2009-03-12T22:08:00.000+08:00

2009-03-11T22:44:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MR XIE!

this photo was taken last year on his birthday as well :D

yesterday:
went to th drive centre with pris for our driving thing :D
but just went we got on th bus, her slippers broke!
so she had to walk to th centre bare footed.
everybody around us was staring at her
she was th joke of th day luhs!
and so i thought of a great idea:D
i used her hair clip to fix her slippers :/
but th clip kept slipping off her slippers so i guess it's not a very good idea :/
im th cobbler in training :D

today:
went to swim with pris, aaron, nick and jireh at signature park :D
it was super fun and we were playing monkey using two goggles :/
sauna-ed with all of them also joke luhs.
im super tired now.
bye.
and it kept breaking ):

2009-03-09T23:07:00.001+08:00

告訴我怎麼能忘記你的笑容
告訴我怎麼做才是普通朋友

2009-03-09T20:58:00.003+08:00

there's a lot of things that i want to say but i just don't know where to start. i'm feeling so distant from who i used to be close too. this is a very awkward feeling really. D:

and i want to thank those who are there for me when i really need them. i really appreciate you guys.

and you, i hope that you can really cheer up luhs. there's nothing too big that cannot be solved luhs :D

2009-03-07T01:04:00.002+08:00

FINALLY! : D

I'm super happy now! All the effort has not gone down the drain seriously! I've been trying to talk to this guy online for don't know how many decades luhs. He has finally replied me! FINALLY! WHOOTS!

2009-03-05T00:23:00.001+08:00

Somehow, I just feel that I've drifted away from a lot of people. This feeling sucks you know? Sigh.

2009-03-02T00:02:00.003+08:00

sometimes i really feel like giving up on you.
i'm really very tired of all this shit that you're giving me.
i really don't deserve all this shity treatments do i?
you don't have to show me all of your emotions here.
you're not th only one with problems you know?
you must be thinking what problems do you have right?
to you my problems may be small but it's a big deal to my in my life you know?
sigh.

33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Matthew 6: 33-34

2009-02-28T21:58:00.002+08:00

i don't know why is he so pissed off.
maybe i said something wrong.
but he should know that i didn't mean it luhs.
but when i saw him cursing and swearing, i felt damn sad.
i mean i know that he's pissed off but there's nothing i can do.
but just to say that i'm sorry.

2009-02-27T23:02:00.002+08:00

SERIOUSLY...

I hate it when people just walk away just like this.
Some people they just don't realise it.
They think that it's fun.
Yes, it might be fun.
But not fun to me at all.

2009-02-24T16:56:00.004+08:00

Dig a hole for my coffin.

when my lungs turns black, its time for me go.
i don't really want to stay on this earth.
looking at how fucked up is my brother's damn attitude towards everybody.
having feelings for somethings that shouldn't have feelings.
slit my throat and drip my blood dry.
thanks.

2009-02-22T18:11:00.001+08:00

SYNOD YOUTH LEADERSHIP CAMP!

2009-02-19T23:28:00.003+08:00

DINNER AT NEW YORK NEW YORK! :D

Darius did a new york new york challenge!
he had to finish a giant yankee burger within an hour.
hahah.
let me show you how big is th burger! :D
anyway, i did enjoy th dinner especially th candy floss!

2009-02-17T22:51:00.001+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

2009-02-16T17:10:00.000+08:00

somehow i think my best has forgotten about me. ):

2009-02-16T11:38:00.002+08:00

KEEPING THE DISTANCE :D

i'm glad that i went out with my parents yesterday.
had dinner with my parents and one of my uncle
and they always have a lot of new stories to tell us during dinner time :D
somehow i just love listening and laughing at their story.
but not when he was talking about him having to shit all over the place last time while having dinner.
hahah.

the interview is tomorrow!
this is my last chance.
sigh.

anyway,
joan im not emo luhs. i just dont feel like talking much that's all.

2009-02-14T21:57:00.002+08:00

FIGHT THE FEELING TILL THE END!

went down to town today to get my jacket BUT i didnt get it in th end ):
bought shantelle's birthday present also.
hope that she'll like it tho :D

HEYYOU!
i hope everything is fine. seriously from th bottom of my heart. was kind of worried for you. missed you too. see you tomorrow :D

2009-02-10T20:33:00.002+08:00

i just want to get out from this bloody emo cell.

2009-02-07T22:30:00.006+08:00

oh mine, my feelings are so mixed up now.

there's a lot of things for me to say right now but i just dont know where i should start.

sigh, how should i be feeling now?

告訴我　怎麼能忘記你的笑容

2009-02-07T00:11:00.002+08:00

HE DOESNT DESERVES ALL THIS THINGS NOW.

how can a man be deserving all this pain when he's only in early sixties?
he hasn't earn enough for him to enjoy life down th road with his wife and children.
he had been working so hard for his family and yet what did has he got back in return?
all he got back was just pain and extra expenses.
this isn't fair.

hey you, cheer up alright?

2009-02-06T11:08:00.002+08:00

唐禹哲-告訴我

一個人走一走　街燈下的路口
握不緊的雙手　不知怎麼形容
已被你擊退的我　不知道該往哪躲
想不到挽留的藉口

面對面跟我說　你已經不愛我
承諾全部沒收
讓我忘了所有　一個人重新來過
你怎麼那麼從容　怎麼都等不及我回頭

狠心的話　全都講完
剩下的路　各走一半
也許我真的不夠勇敢
畢竟相愛一場有太多片段

告訴我　怎麼能忘記你的笑容
告訴我　怎麼做才是普通朋友
假如你用心守候　不會是這個結果
你說的我都懂　我卻不能夠就這樣放手

告訴我　悲傷的時候會想起我
告訴我　你捨得讓我獨自飄泊
有些話說不出口　害怕又犯下了錯
分手還沒有說淚就先流

sigh, i think this song suits my mood now.

2009-02-05T23:15:00.002+08:00

B-O-R-E-D

Im doing this cause my beloved cousin tagged me : D

1. Are you friendly?
-I hope so :D

2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
-Uhm, no obviously not.

3. Do you enjoy going to school?
-I used too :D

4. What would you do with a Billion Dollars?
-Buy Benita a guitar, Jireh a drum set, build a jamming studio, open a resturant, giving half of a billion to my parents :D

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
-It happened before

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
-Loving someone?

7. List out any of your most favourite artist.
-罗志祥

8. What is your favourite food?
-Chicken Rice of course! <3

9. Is there anything that has made you happy?
-Making fun of my brother :D

10. What makes you angry?
-When my brother makes noise while playing th guitar -.-

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
-Lying in th coffin? You wont even know what will happened tml. Right?

12. What are you thinking of right now?
-Thinking of somebody.

13. What are the most important things in your life?
-God, Family and Friends :D

14. Single or attached?
-Or. HAHAH

15. What are your favourite colours?
-Green, Hot Pink, Black, White, Gold and Sliver!

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
-Uhm, yeah I guess so.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
-Th person who appears in my mind first when I close my eyes.

18. Would you forgive or forget no matter how horrible a thing someone has done?
-Forgive and Forget is th right thing to do :D

19. What do you really want to know?
-I want to know whether will I get a place in th school!

5 people I've tagged:
Beatrice, Joshua, Benita, Joan, Jireh!

2009-01-31T22:25:00.000+08:00

grossed out!

BEAUTY AND THE BEAST DONT GO IN REALITY!

2009-01-31T00:14:00.002+08:00

R-A-N-D-O-M-P-O-S-T!

Chirstina, Evan, Dom Tan, Joshua, Shantelle, Beatrice, Joan, Jireh, Tanya, Aaron and Wei Song came over to my house for dinner and bai nian at the same time :D The dinner was a spread! Thanks to my dad! :D Something freaky happened! One of my primary school class mate appeared in front of my door step while i was having dinner. I felt damn weird and i was super freaked out okay? :/ Went to the playground after dinner to sort of escape away from her but i felt really bad! hahah! Went to mushroom park after awhile. HAHAHAH! I enjoyed myself i hope they did too! :D

now i only can look at you from a distance far away.

2009-01-27T23:01:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! : D

hahah, this photo was taken on monday after reunion lunch!

2009-01-19T23:07:00.002+08:00

HOW CAN THIS BE HAPPENING? ):

oh well, i've realised that i've not been talking to my beloved cousin for damn long ):
i mean i've never been so distanted from her!
like seriously, when i saw her on sunday,
th first thing i said/asked to her was not hi but "ehhhh where's my brother did you see him?"
i felt super bad ):
im sorry okay?
hope to catch up with her during CNY! :D

2009-01-18T01:02:00.002+08:00

i hate it when people start asking me to go for classes!
nobody understands how i feel when im there.
just quit asking me to go!

2009-01-17T22:16:00.003+08:00

H-A-R-D-E-R!

i need to practice harder!
so much harder.
i want to be better.
much better than what i am now.
oh yes, th biggest thing i have to do now is to to over come is myself!
me myself and i!

2009-01-17T00:06:00.003+08:00

LOOKING BACK AT HOW WE LOOKED LIKE! :D

benita, jia and yubin.
look how unglam i was.
look how fat beni was.
look for cute yubin was. :D

Benita and jia.
look at how dirty she was.
she fell into a puddle of muddy water(!!)

2009-01-14T22:03:00.003+08:00

OH I CAN FEEL THE PAIN! :D

just came back from squash not long ago! :D
i think improving on my skills.
hopefully! :D
jireh went just now too!
hahahah.
he was being such a joker.
every ball he hit he just have to make us laugh! -.-
and while serving, i missed th ball and th racket landed on my knee.
now there's a bump ):
i cant walk properly either ):
i lead a sad life luh uh!
thank you dom! :D

thank you bang and kai for th guitar strip!
i really love it a lot :D
*hugs*

2009-01-13T15:22:00.002+08:00

UN-COOPERATIVE CHINA HUMANS!

went to play pool with jireh yesterday under irc.
when we went over to irc right,
theres is weird bird china guy.
he's damn weird bird i tell you.
like what the hotdog!
we had been going to irc for pool sessions there for a few months i tell you.
and apparently i used jireh's ezlink for deposit for th past month.
that weird bird he just had to scan th damn ezlink yesterday.
he called us back to th counter rudely i tell you im damn pist!
and he asked me for my i/c and i told him i lost my wallet.
that weird bird he kept asking for my ezlink or i/c.
i bet he dont even understand simple english or chinese.
like he asked who allowed us to play th other day.
and we point to th next weird bird next to him.
th weird bird next to him said that he didnt allow us to play th other time.
like what th hotdog(!!!)
that weird bird obviously doesnt has balls luh!
i wonder what will those two weird birds be if they were back in china.
farming right!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.
so we went downstairs to play pool instead!
th auntie downstairs were obviously sooooo much better than those weird birds.
i tell you.
so we started to play and while playing,
they played some english song.
and i was wondering why they play this kind of songs.
then jireh replied saying cause we speak english.
but i told him they usaully play techno or chinese.
hahaha.
so aft 3pm they started playing techno in tamil i think.
it sounded like tamil :D
and there was this two guys two tables away from us they were like staring at what we were playing.
when we played nine balls, they started playing it also.
and i heard them saying that we clear th table super fast.
so i told jireh to compete with them.
i bet they were competing with us also.
hahahah.
and obviously they lost! :D
hahahah.

2009-01-11T18:22:00.002+08:00

2- side faced human!

i dont know whether will you get to read this but seriously, one day some guy asked me to state one thing good about. and yet, i just cant find anything good about to say about you. like seriously, maybe there's a lot of people disliking you but im still trying to treat you the same. i hope you seriously can change for the better and change all of your loser attitudes. like seriously. next time when somebody ask me the same question, i hope i could not only say one thing about you but a few more. so please.

2009-01-10T22:27:00.003+08:00

CHURCH CLEANING DAY.... WAS A SUCCESS!

went to church today at 10am to meet nicholas to pack th yf room!
than beatrice came along aft that!
than after that i jireh for lunch in th afternoon :D
after that we went back to pack th yf room!
we had to open one of th room to put our stuff cause we were literally blocking th walk way! ):
so we opened th room next to yf room to put all of our stuff.
but...we opened th room opposite to but our cupboard!
but we enjoyed th whole process of cleaning i guess! :D
but i think th part we enjoyed th most was too scare auntie annie with a fake lizard or cockroach!
you just have to put it in front of her and she'll scream like mad.
seriously, damn funny.
okay im feeling damn bad. ):
we ended packing th yf room at 8pm! 8pm! :D
now we'll offically present you our clean yf room! :D
but i think we didnt throw away a lot of stuff!
so beware...!
but now im TIRED! ):

2009-01-10T00:13:00.002+08:00

HAPPY POST! : D

beatrice ask me to post a happy post so here it goes.

i am happy, you are happy. we are happy, everybody is happy.
i am happy, you are happy. we are happy, everybody is happy.
i am happy, you are happy. we are happy, everybody is happy.
i am happy, you are happy. we are happy, everybody is happy.
i am happy, you are happy. we are happy, everybody is happy.
i am happy, you are happy. we are happy, everybody is happy.
i am happy, you are happy. we are happy, everybody is happy.
i am happy, you are happy. we are happy, everybody is happy.
i am happy, you are happy. we are happy, everybody is happy.
i am happy, you are happy. we are happy, everybody is happy.
i am happy, you are happy. we are happy, everybody is happy.
i am happy, you are happy. we are happy, everybody is happy.
i am happy, you are happy. we are happy, everybody is happy.
i am happy, you are happy. we are happy, everybody is happy.
i am happy, you are happy. we are happy, everybody is happy.
i am happy, you are happy. we are happy, everybody is happy.
i am happy, you are happy. we are happy, everybody is happy.
i am happy, you are happy. we are happy, everybody is happy.
i am happy, you are happy. we are happy, everybody is happy.
i am happy, you are happy. we are happy, everybody is happy.

2009-01-07T22:24:00.002+08:00

S-Q-U-A-S-H I-S F-U-N!

went to play squash this morning with Tim, Micheal and Dom! :D
and i realised tht all of my strokes are from badminaton!
sheesh.
but th real reason for me to go today was to vent all of my anger and unhappiness.
but also to sweat it all out!
but i think tht squash was super fun and is super fun.
Micheal's last day out mann! ):
he's going in tml for 2 weeks!
ahahahha!

played guitar at Dom's house this afternoon.
it was super fun. :D
he kept playing "Angelina" from Tommy Emmanuel!
but tht Tommy guy is pro shit!
hahahah.
but im playing with th Romance de Amor.
damn fun. :D

hey, if you read this dont be sad alright?
cheer up you!
(:

2009-01-06T18:30:00.004+08:00

LOOKING GOOD ON THE OUTSIDE BUT EMPTY INSIDE.

went to report today in th morning.
had a good time of reflection and lecturing also.
im just like a cup tht is upside down all this while.
imagine you bringing a cup to th pantry to fill up a cup of coffee.
but your cup is upside down.
you can never fill it.
all you get is a dirty floor and stains of coffee around th cup.
so im just like tht.
looking good on th outside but empty inside.
i've never got th discipline and responsibility at all.
never once.
crying now is a easy job for me to do.
sigh.

im slightly sad now.
but i knw everything will be over very soon.

this is not making much sense but it's just cause im bored.
A- Apple
B- Boy
C- Cutting
D- Drunk
E- Eating
F- Fugging
G- Girl
H- Heartbroken
I- Idiotic
J- Jiahui
K- Killing
L- Lazying
M- Mocking
N- Nursing
O- Oating
P- Puking
Q- Quitting
R- Resting
S- Slitting
T- Timing
U- Under depression
V- Volka
W- Wondering
X- Xman
Y- Yoyo
Z- Zebra

2009-01-05T14:29:00.001+08:00

it'll be gone not long after.

today i was being th pro-est person on earth.
i stupidly cabbed down to mcys to report.
in th end when i reached there,
i realised tht today was th 5th not th 6th -.-
sucked and sucks.

hahah, sssg! :D

BEST GET WELL SOON! LOVES!

2009-01-04T23:10:00.002+08:00

OMG FEVER PLUS BLOCKED NOSE = TOTAL SHITNESS! ):

today is th last day of posting stuff like this.
you were once th heartbreaker but its okay.
its not your fault.
it was all along one sided but its okay also.
cause, its not your fault.
so dnt apologise. :D

went shopping with my ma today!
bought only a pair of new jeans today!
brother bought a new phone ! :D
i think im getting a new phone and new line too.
hopefully.

okay im gna rest now. bye

2009-01-03T21:56:00.002+08:00

THANK GOD :D

went for frisbee today in th morning!
thank God for providing us with such a good weather today :D
even tho it was rather windy.
but we all still enjoyed ourselves i suppose :D

i seriously thank God for you to be around all this while.
thank God for th discipline tht he had given to us for quiting it for good.
but i seriously feel so distant from you now ):
i dnt like this feeling but seems like theres nothing i can do to get this back anymore.
i hope tht you'll remember th pac tht we've made okay? (:

2009-01-02T00:03:00.004+08:00

NEW YEAR RESOLUTION FOR TWO OH OH NINE!

1. To be able to get closer to God and have a stronger relationship with Him.
2. To get over some stuff that im suppose too.
3. To get baptised by this year.
4. To get my car license by this year also.
5. To get a job.

Last year had been a rough year for me. If those of you who know what happened last year you guys should know how rough it had been. There's a few people that i really want to thank.

Benita!
jie, thanks for being there when i need you the most. I'll never forget what happened last year outside the court. I've never felt so afraid before but i really thank God for such a great cousin to be there whenever i needed you. Thank you for your listening ears and sisterly love :D

Evan!
hey ah ma, i don't think you'll read this but i think Benita will tell you about this tho. Anyway, i really want to thank you for being there for me when i needed somebody to talk to. All these years of care and concern that you've shown. Thank you for staying up so late to teach or rather training me in log. Coiling cables was so yesterday! I'll never forget how much dirty was there on my hands :D

Wenyao!
Aye dad, even tho i don't think you'll read this but Benita will tell you i suppose. Even tho we've distant quite a bit but those times when you, Evan and Benita have to bare with all of my nonsense seems to be so yesterday kinda thing. Thank you for listening to me when I'm down and giving me the right advices. Thank you for staying up late teaching me how to dismantling
mic stands and it was so yesterday! :D

Jireh!
hey sexybeast! thanks for those period of time whereby we quarrel and hang out together! We're always together. And I really really thank God for you to be my best friend! Remember the pac ahhhhh! :D

Tanya!
Best, thank you for those times when i needed somebody to talk to. I loved all of our heart to heart talks we had. Sometimes, i think I'm rather annoying right? i just keep repeating the same old thing over and over again! I really thank God for you!

Joan!
hey sweet, thank you soooo much for being my sms buddy for 6 months i think! :D I loved all of our heart to heart talks also. Even tho you're just ask blur as a sotong but you're just a God sent to cheer me up all the time. You never failed. Never. :D

Shantelle AND Sam Lun!
THANK YOU! YOU GUYS SOOOOOO MUCH FOR BEING MY FRIENDS :D

AND TO YOU WHO READS MY BLOG I THANK GOD FOR YOU TOO! THANK YOU SO MUCH! LOVES! :D

I REALLY THANK GOD FOR ALL OF YOU GUYS! OF COURSE THIS STUFF HERE IS NOT THE ONLY THING I WANT TO SAY TO EACH OF YOU. CAUSE EVERYTHING IS BEYOND DESCRIPTION! ITS FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART! SERIOUSLY. LOOK AT MY SERIOUS FACE! :D

2009-01-01T22:56:00.002+08:00

do you knw how it feels like linking somebody you like to guys or girls?
its a fucked up feeling can?
you're just fucking laughing your ass off but you're crying your fucking eyes out.
like omg fuck why am i feeling like it?
darn!

2009-01-01T19:42:00.002+08:00

LAST DAY OF THE YEAR:
went to joan's house to find those people stayed over at her house th night before th last night of th year.
watched a bit of "Money Not Enough 2" again.
but even before i cry, we left for dinner mann ):
i watch tht show 3 times i cried 3 times luhs.
hahahah!
then we decided to go to sakae sushi for buffet lunch!
went we got there,
we got to knw tht there wasnt buffet lunch on tht day cos it was a public holiday eve!
got such thing one ah, i didnt knw leh :/
we made a lot of noise at tht place and everybody stopped and stare!
get it? stop and stare!
HAHAHAHAH!
and we started th number of letters convo.
its quite funny can? :D

i think im stinking in deeper and deeper day by day.
sigh.

2009-01-01T16:19:00.002+08:00

OMEGA NITE PHOTOS!

SHANTELLE, JIA AND JOAN :D

WE'RE THE CHARLIE ANGEL'S BUT IM ARGUING WITH THE HOST -.-

WHERE'S ROSE? ):

HAHAHAH I WIN RYU! :D

i'll post more later :D

2008-12-31T23:31:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR PULL YOUR EAR! :D

this year had been quite bad for me besides all of those fellowships and church stuff.
hahah.
i hope this year will be a better year for me. (:

and i hope this will be a better one for you guys too! :D

2008-12-30T22:54:00.000+08:00

OMEGA NITE WAS A BLAST! :D

Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step until
I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away

2008-12-29T23:46:00.000+08:00

2008-12-29T23:00:00.003+08:00

OMEGA NITE TML! :D

THIS IS THE NEOPRINT THAT WE TOOK TODAY! :D

when we took damn long to decide whether to take this neoprint! :/

but in th end i think everybody enjoyed th process! :D

there goes tay yi's first neoprint in his life! (:

hey thanks for th cake today!

i was shocked actually.

tears were abt to form and roll down.

but when i saw yours i was shocked.

im sorry my dear.

you're always th best okay?

dnt be like that!

LOVES <3!

2008-12-28T20:34:00.005+08:00

HMMMM....

i felt so hurt today aft choir prac.
i mean seriously, you knw how much i expected from you?
okay maybe you dont know.
i mean like why do i get different treatment from others?
it has been so many years ever since you've did such things.
okay wait...
maybe you've never did it before?
i told you i would cry cause i was alrdy crying inside.
yes i did cry.
so am i know typing this post.
anyway, you dont have to feel bad about this
cause maybe im not even worth it.
im not worth anybody.

tanya, i was really crying just now.
just that i was trying to laugh so i wont cry more.
i wasnt acting. :/

and i dont think any of you cared/cares.

2008-12-27T23:03:00.003+08:00

IM WONDERING WHY AND IM STILL WONDERING....

i really wonder why are they like that.
two- faced creatures.
its damn scary i tell you.
you wont know when their going to stab you from th back.
seriously.
please stop judging from how people look from th outside.
its seriously damn fucking irritating.

i wonder why am i still living on this earth.

2008-12-26T22:42:00.000+08:00

LEE YUBIN THIS IS FOR YOU! :D

2008-12-26T22:27:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRYAN! :D

went out with tanya, joan, joy, bryan, wilson, tay ye and ronald! :D
we went to plaza sing first and shopped ard at cotton on! (:
i bought a singlet today im so happy :D
but i was supposed to buy something else too but i didnt have th time too. D:
oh wells.
had lunch at th fish market place.
it was nice and th platter was really BIG! :D
aft tht was like ice cream at Ben & Jerry's!
yummy! :D
we caught a movie aft tht!
AUSTRALIA was quite nice.
even tho i almost fell asleep at some point of time!
TANYA AND JOAN cried during th movie!
HAHAHAHAHAHAH ;D

church aft tht!
sorry chrissypoo for being late ):
aft tht it was dinner :D
ohsheesh im hungry alrdy ):

淚水將我淹沒到底誰該難過
究竟是誰放掉這段感情
我才終於明白辦不到的承諾就成了枷鎖
現實中幸福永遠缺貨

請告訴她我不愛她笑著難過自我懲罰

想終止這一切掙扎橫了心說真心謊話
別告訴她我還想她恨總比愛容易放下
當淚水堵住了胸口就讓沉默代替所有回答
我不愛我不痛我不懂
我的心早已掏空
真心話言不由衷

i'll take this time to get over you.
everything will end this year.

2008-12-26T00:35:00.002+08:00

THANKS DADDY AND MUMMY :D *HUGS*
(AND ER GU, LIU SHU AND THE REST WHO WENT FOR THE PARTY!)

had birthday party today with my family and cousins (:
woke up rather late today.
when i woke up, i found a new MR MISS CUSHION next to me!
THANKS MOTHER! :D
and THANKS FATHER for th hongbao! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST QI SHU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRYAN :D

let everything end together with this year please.

2008-12-24T23:55:00.001+08:00

this is a photo tht i love th most! :D

anyway, thank you people who gave me stuff and hugs :D

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL OF YOU!

2008-12-22T22:37:00.001+08:00

sigh is th word for now.

2008-12-21T22:59:00.002+08:00

SENTOSA AND MR SUN HERE I COME! :D

i cant wait for th trip to sentosa tml!
oh yay!
i cant wait to get tanner and blah! (:

went to church early early in th morning today!
went to al azhar for breakfast after that.
went for Christmas eve concert rehearsal!
B.E.N.I.T.A im proud of you! :D

i've got this strange feeling.
th feeling makes me feel disliked.
you're just not th same anymore.
why? ):

2008-12-20T14:32:00.004+08:00

I LOVE MAKING TANG YUAN(S)! :D

yesterday was a super hectic day.
went town yesterday with bang jie to finish my shopping list! :D
it was done rather fast tho.
cause i knew wht to buy but not bang jie!
hahahah!
after that i wanted to go home to sleep but no i couldnt.
cause my beloved benita called me to help her print some stuff.
so i did go and print and i didnt sliced it.
thanks evan :D
went up to help th rest to deco th room :D
i had so had so much fun spraying th white stuff.
BUT it stinks i tell you!
aft tht we had buffet dinner.
i tought them this sheng dang lao ren game.
i think joan is really funny!
hahahah!

i love making tang yuan now!
i always make th tang yuan thing than my granny will come and help.
and start telling me stories abt how they have work they had to do before making it.
and blah blah blah.
she also said tht my cousins and i love to help her make kueh and tang yuan!
yummy :D

dont tell me that we'll never be together.

2008-12-18T22:00:00.002+08:00

ORANGE SQUASH FOR DOM! :D

went to play squash with dom, tim, shantelle and tay yi!
we were suppose to meet at 10 in th end i woke up late -.-
but i rush down :D
i suck at squash mann! ):
than we went to btp for lunch!
i was hungry and thristy ):
after drinking, i felt hungry.
after eating i felt full.
like duh right!
hahah!

i dnt sound whiney do i?
i wonder! :/

2008-12-18T00:04:00.003+08:00

BLOOOOP BLOOOOOOP BLOOOOOOOP SOTONG! :D

went to meet my ex colleagues today!
went to ms to eat at waraku mann!
one word shiok ahhhh!
but than right, all we ate was sotong.
i think we had a whole family of sotong leh!
fried, bbq-ed and cooked sotong!
so right, im gna transform to become a S-O-T-O-N-G!
bloooop bloooop bloooooooop SOTONG! :D

all i want for Christmas is you!

2008-12-16T23:27:00.002+08:00

HEY YOU! WHO ME? YES YOU!

hey come on!
i've had enough of all of your rubbish!
enough of saying that you're stressed and blah.
cos i dnt see anything tht you can be stressed abt.
come on luh.
its not like everybody cares abt how you feel down there you knw.
its really annoying when you say those stuff.
you knw it better yourself than anybody else okay!
he doesnt wnt to care abt you so be it luh.
you expect ppl to like listen to you talk abt all this.
but right, you dnt listen to ppl talk.
your world revolves around him but our world dont.
ehhhh you knw it better for yourself okay!
im just gross-ed out by you.
bye!

2008-12-16T21:56:00.003+08:00

edited!

HOHOHO! VITAMIN B6...

HOHOHO :D
did nothing much in th day besides sleeping! :/
was suppose to play squash in th morning with shantelle, joan and dom today.
but dom's dad took leave to take them out.
so we had to postpone th game to thursday :/
oh well, better than nothing right?
family is much more important than friends :D

went out with sing lynn th old women :D
suppose to buy stuff but we didnt buy anything.
sorry uhhh. ):
actually, i think going out with her is rather embrassing leh! >.<
oh especially when she walks!
she walks damn loudly!
when we were in a shop with carpet flooring you really cant hear her walk leh.
but immediately aft we stepped out of th shop,
you can hear th way she walks so clearly!
tsktsk!
but i'll still go out with her i think!
hahahah :D

oh mann!
i want to grow a banana tree at home! :D
but now i've got a bunch of bananas to finish! :D

Last ChristmasI gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This yearTo save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

2008-12-15T19:27:00.002+08:00

HELLO! :D

slept till about 2 plus today mann.
and im still feeling very tired mann! ):
met geraldine and chloe at serene centre!
and geraldine kept smacking my xi yi ban luh!
its so flat alrdy still whack.
hahah!
i knw you wnt it flater den yours right!
:D